聽著歌在寫故事

這些日子，我不是在新濠天地（明年開幕的新賭場）中痛苦打滾，便是為周大褔80周年的宣傳抓破頭皮。

周大褔宣傳標語﹣美麗人生，永恆銘記，我睡著了也懂得念，這些閃得令人眼痛的首飾，需要的是感動得令人流淚的故事來作廣告。

我自問，實在不是一個浪漫人，不然我不會一個人在家乾痛苦。

話雖如此，作為一個專業的廣告撰稿員，我必須有能力編造令駱駝也會灑淚的動人故事，但首先，我需要一些工具﹣情歌。

於是《林憶蓮》、《掛住你》在我的耳邊日夜迴響，卻的確能令我寫出三數個尚算可以的故事，但客人永遠是貪婪的，他們永遠想要更多，而我可以做的，就是不斷付出我的廉價情感，讓所有人批閱修改。

今早我轉聽英文歌，有一首歌我覺得melody很好聽，於是不斷repeat，故事也能順利寫出來，可喜可賀的同時，我本來從不留心的歌詞卻有數句在不知不覺間鑽進耳裡去了。於是上網找歌詞。



"The Heart Of The Matter"

[originally performed by Don Henley]

I got the call today, I didn't wanna hear
But I knew that it would come
An old true friend of ours was talkin' on the phone
She said you found someone
And I thought of all the bad luck,
And all the struggles we went through
How I lost me and you lost you
What are these voices outside love's open door
Make us throw off our contentment
And beg for something more?

I've been learning to live without you now
But I miss you sometimes
The more I know, the less I understand
All the things I thought I knew, I'm learning them again
I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
But my will gets weak
And my thoughts seem to scatter
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore

These times are so uncertain
There's a yearning undefined
And people filled with rage
We all need a little tenderness
How can love survive in such a graceless age
And the trust and self-assurance that lead to happiness
They're the very things we kill, I guess
Pride and competition cannot fill these empty arms
And the work they put between us,
You know it doesn't keep us warm

I've been trying to live without you now
But I miss you, baby
The more I know, the less I understand
And all the things I thought I figured out, I have to learn again
I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
But my will gets weak
And my heart is so shattered
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore

All the people in your life who've come and gone
They let you down, you know they hurt your pride
Better put it all behind you; cause life goes on
You keep carrin' that anger, it'll eat you up inside

I wanna be happily everafter
And my heart is so shattered
But I know it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore

I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
Because the flesh will get weak
And the ashes will scatter
So I'm thinkin' about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if you don't love me anymore
Even if you don't love me anymore



心情低沉下來，是的，就是那麼直接的擊中了我。夠了我想大聲說，不要再這樣自怨自艾吧我求求你我跟自己說，我很想再站起來呀。


“So I am thinking about forgiveness, even if you don’t love me anymore.”


我們根本不需要原諒這回事吧，我和你從來都不會恨，我們需要的只是時間罷了，或者只是我需要時間罷了，讓你的影子，你的氣味，你的聲音，從我的生活裡淡化開去。